“18 CANDLES”
FOR AMBER
April 21st
My Baby Girl,
Today you were to turn 18, a year has gone by yet I shed a tear because 17, you will forever be. I look upon that day you chose to take your self “home”. You left a big ache in our hearts when you left us alone. They told me not to cry, to let you go. I ask myself “WHY? I miss you much. I see you everywhere I look. I look at the sun and I know it is you smiling down on at us. I can hear you sweet voice say to me “ MOM DON’T CRY FOR IT IS ONLY A LITTLE WHILE UNTIL WE CAN WALK TOGETHER IN THIS BEAUTIFUL PLACE” I wake up in the mornings missing you the most , for this the time that you made my day by waking me up with your beautiful face. It has been a while since I did not cry. I wanted to lay down and die with you, but it is not to be your wish. So I stay here to finish out the Creators list. Your brother is so lost with out you, growing up you two stuck together like glue. He does not let on, but I know he misses you so. I would not hurt, if only I can know “Are you happy? Do you miss us, like we miss you? Do you think of us, like we think of you? I can only comfort my thoughts with the picture of you playing jokes and laughing with people that you loved who have passed. People tell me “you are so strong” I want to reply “you so wrong”. Not a minute goes by that I don’t think of you. Not a day goes by that I do not cry. I hurt from missing you; the pain is still like that day you left. They say the time we are here on Mother Earth is only like a minute, but for me it will be like a thousand eternities until I can see you again. So my baby girl today we eat a birthday cake for you and I will blow out your 18 candles.
MISSING YOU,
MOM AND D.J |
